Simona

I don't remember exactly when I first encountered Simona's work; maybe it was around 2021 or 2022...

I don't know exactly. But I've been following her, albeit from afar, for a while.

Simona's work consists of classic bondage: tied hands and feet, a tape gag or ball gag, and a beautiful outfit. You can see the inspiration from AES Bondage, Bondage Bob, TuscusonTied, and many other sites and studios from the vast pornographic collection on the internet.

The poses she chooses are mostly generic and well-known. The setting adds almost nothing to the photos or the narrative.

However, there's a particularity in Simona's work that catches our attention and captures our gaze, and of course, it could be none other than Simona herself.

                                    

Simona captivates us with her beauty and expressiveness, with something about her that makes us look and look again, trying to understand what it is about her that captivates us.

I personally always find myself staring into her eyes, which always seem to want to say something to me, like, "I know you're watching me." Her thick, black eyebrows also contribute to her dramatic gaze.

Her nose is perfect, perfectly matching her somewhat fragile expressiveness.

Simona and I talked for a while. I always like to try to understand who the models I write about are (sometimes that's possible, sometimes not). We had a nice conversation, at least for my part. I don't think she liked me or what I do.

But she kept talking to me, expressing her opinion and, I think, listening to mine.

We have very different opinions about explicitness and expressiveness.

Simona didn't like my (in her own words) explicit way of writing my posts and how I write about other models, and she asked me not to include any descriptions of her pussy or any rape and death scenes with her in the middle.

I wasn't even thinking about doing that at first. Simona turns me on, but she also awakens something more hidden than just the urge to fantasize about kidnapping or rape.

No, Simona seems to resonate more deeply in my mind.

And after our conversation, I was really thinking about what we discussed and her opinions.

Simona tries to argue that her content isn't explicit, doesn't have nudity, or anything like extreme pornography. Which is actually true. As she says, she draws inspiration from horror films, POVs, documentaries, and the classic (and already exhausted) damsel-in-distress porn genre.

Her work would then simply awaken that quick, superficial, and perhaps innocent arousal in us. That arousal from looking at something sexy, from seeing beautiful mannequins without clothes, from seeing the models on the pantyhose boxes, and so on.

Hardness, pain, and suffering are not part of Simona's world. Simona's is a fun world, where tying up your friend is a common late-afternoon romp, where gagging is just a distraction to excite our blood without much pretense.

It seems like everything is wrapped up in coitus interruptus, where we're always about to come, but we never do.

 

Simona, upon reading some blog posts, told me she found the explicit way I wrote about some models disrespectful. She said she doesn't like people thinking about her in such a sexual and disturbing way.

I think this was the main point that made me think and wander this weekend.

I've been consuming BDSM porn for over 20 years. I've seen so many models and so many websites that my attempt to archive and catalog it all would be impossible, but I always wondered: does this whore posing for me, frozen in this photograph, know what I'm doing and thinking? What are the limits of sexual fantasy? Is it wrong for me to have cruel and disturbing fantasies about this model? If this model awakens my most primal instincts, should I relearn myself?

Many of these questions have found a place on the blog itself.

I use the blog for this, to talk about my most perverse fantasies that certain people awaken in me. Am I to blame for feeling this way? And will Simona be guilty of awakening the demons of those who see her?

Simona also captivates us with her beautiful legs! My God, those legs! They're just the right balance between firm and soft. They're long, shapely, and smooth... I won't digress any further, lest I end up commenting on anything that comes from the depths of my soul.

During our conversations, we spoke in Spanish, which was extremely pleasant for me. It had been years since I'd practiced my Spanish, and I've always loved Spanish. I don't know if everyone has this, but I particularly love certain languages like Spanish, Turkish, and Arabic (and of course, my native language, which is the best of all).

Simona is from Colombia, and interacting with her brought back memories of my trips to Colombia.

I've been to Colombia twice and spent a good amount of time there, especially in Cartagena, which, for me, is better than Rio de Janeiro. Talking to her, I remembered the 20 days I spent in Cartagena in 2015, walking along the city walls and spending my nights in Guetsmani...

It's also worth remembering that Colombian Spanish is one of the most beautiful; they don't speak as quickly as Argentines (and they don't have the upturned nose that Argentines have), and they also don't eat or intonate syllables in a strange way.

I don't think there's any guilt in fantasizing about explicit things; after all, they're fantasies, and we never truly control what we feel.

Images, sounds, and thoughts enter our heads, unobtrusively; the excitement comes without you even wanting to feel it.

It's up to us to rationalize these fantasies and express them in a "safe" space. Pornography is that safe space where we can express our most perverse fantasies.

I also think there seems to be a case of mistaken identity; the photos Simona takes and posts cease to be an accurate photograph of the human being there, becoming an idea, an idealization.

In other words, in the end, my perverse fantasies aren't about the real Simona, but rather the Simona interpreted in my mind.

There's Simona the human being, who makes the videos and photos, this Simon. There's Simona the character, who posts them online, and finally, there's Simona inside every mind that has ever seen her.

All these "Simonas" are unique and independent. The Simona I imagine, the one who populates my mind, is not the real Simona; she resembles me much more than she does. And that's obvious. Because she will carry my projections within her.

All this to say that the author of the work matters little. I, as a viewer, have complete freedom to interpret the work as I see fit. And my interpretation will not nullify the author's intention, but rather complement it, creating its own universe.

Simona looks like a naughty slut; through her eyes, you can see the perversion of her mind. Perhaps it's a cute, restrained, and vulgar perversion, but from the same sea that this innocent and playful slut comes something deeper; if you look closely, you'll see dark desires and fantasies, ready to take over your heart and mind.

Her black hair is also beautiful; really, what's not beautiful about Simona?

Simona told me she has a fetish for white socks. I couldn't help but imagine her taking off her black boots, revealing her new white socks... I even imagine the smell that would come from her socks after a day of wearing boots. It would be that warm smell, not of foot odor, but that smell that mixes the smell of the person, the smell of new socks, and the leather of the boots... Killer, I hope I wasn't too explicit.

I present new ways of seeing the things I write.

I'm excited to write explicit things where there aren't any explicit things, precisely because of the contrast it creates.

I like to describe pussies I've never seen, precisely because of this. I travel in my imagination, creating an imaginary pussy. I don't describe pussies or assholes in works that already have that as a focus.

In these cases, I focus on other things, like the angle, the technique, and what provokes me.

I'm provoked by imagining the pussies of models I've never seen. I imagine, think about what they're like, what color they are, is they shaved or not? And the asshole? Is it wide or tight? I create imaginary representations.

That's my expression.

I know that many models probably receive tons of obscene messages every day, but even in my obscenity, I bring new things that can be appreciated and that captivate people to read. Perhaps with different lenses, you might be able to appreciate my obscenity and explicitness.

Simona seems like a nice person and has good work. Her photos, even simple ones, still entice us to see more of her, and especially, they encourage us to imagine her.

I hope to talk to her more, and perhaps write more about her.

I hope she returns to my writing with a softer outlook and a lowered morale. I believe that way she'll be able to appreciate what I do more.